Loneliness of my heart

Me

For so long I sit on this chair,thinking about my life. How life is beautiful with my family and friends who constantly make me smile but deep inside, there is so much loneliness filled with shadow. The only thing there is just a stream of light and I am in the middle. Looking down , with dirt on my face, my shirt are torn and my eyes is just like a wilted flower. I ask myself what do I lack? I have a loving family who always give me support, I have great friends who always stand by me in time of trouble. I am constantly smiling and laughing. Again, what do I lack to feel so much loneliness?