moving on

okie....guess i did pretty badly for prelim...haha...whu to blame besides myself. Guess i did not work hard enuff, or may be i rush my studies.......aniway what done is done, you can't change the past but you can mould the future ritez.....if my destiny is to fail , guess i muz work hard to change my own fate.....God dun change the fate of those who is not willing to change their own fate. Muz work hard from this day forward,,,

me look at a monster 

wah Lau .............i only got a passed for biology..................haiz...........suck lah.....ARGGGGGGGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
so damm angry sia.....feel like punching someone......haiz......................

At the coffee Shop this Morning

This Is What YOU called Retarded 

It confirm.....i am condemm....even my best subject i flung it.....haiz....wat going on wit my brain?gosh, ,look i wont make it anyway

I am so Dead

Haiz....................die liao.............wat happen to me????????? sudenlly i lost my ability to think.........hiaz.......wat the matter with, y all my paper cock up one?
haiyoh, i am so dead.............look my dream of three month jc course is gone......shattered........haiz...y muz dis happen to me...why now.....especially now...first is my mother tongue O level and now my prelim i oso cock up........argggggggggggggggghhhhhhhhhhhhh
damm it............shit lah..........wat to do now????

You\'re so consumed with how much you get

You waste your time with hate and regret

You\'re broken

When your heart\'s not open

Mmmmmm, if I could melt your heart

Mmmmmm, we\'d never be apart

Mmmmmm, give yourself to me

Mmmmmm, you hold the key

SJaB..............retarded 

exam!!!!!!!!!!

haiz.........physic exam is so hard today.........killer lah...............sure fail one........first time for physic exam i will get F9......but nvm...there is bio and chem to go.....muz score in them.
social studies is surprisingly easy.....cant believe i can do the source based question.....haiz...cannot spent to much time here...need to study chemistry...

How to explain what the heart can't tell?

Can you see what I see? Can you hear what I hear?
Can you feel the emptiness of my heart?


eyes filled with shadow
sobbing but no one hear
desperation was so clear
yet there nothing there, nothing dear


What inside is just shadow
filling the heart of an empty soul
fallen so deep thought i swallow
reaching out his hand but no one hold


How to explain this bitter pain?
It hurt so much like being slain
how to describe what the heart can't tell
an unlive life is worse than hell

I would rather become a Witch than a Bitch 

My first Poem : A Concubine desire

...

When I stepped out of your house
Don’t think I’m a fool
I don’t need to be your concubine
To live my life in full

You can shower me with money
Feed me with golden honey

But I am not like your other chicks
Unlike them, freedom is what I seek

All your mistresses are fools
They do nothing but shrew
You treat them like a tool
In time, out of your house, they will be threw

Your house is like a cage
Ironically I am a queen bee in that hive
But before I am going to aged
The sea is where I will dive

Loneliness of my heart

Me

For so long I sit on this chair,thinking about my life. How life is beautiful with my family and friends who constantly make me smile but deep inside, there is so much loneliness filled with shadow. The only thing there is just a stream of light and I am in the middle. Looking down , with dirt on my face, my shirt are torn and my eyes is just like a wilted flower. I ask myself what do I lack? I have a loving family who always give me support, I have great friends who always stand by me in time of trouble. I am constantly smiling and laughing. Again, what do I lack to feel so much loneliness?