WAssup people !!!!!!!

haha......today got a new class !!!!!!!! haha...i dun actually know most of them, coz i am not involve the ice-breaking game mah. Hehex, i cabut go first aid duty as usual, clever anot me?
haha, cant say that, self praise is international disgrace, haha...who tot me that phrase arr, oh yah it none other than malini..haha

juz now read april blog liao..haha, she say i am so boring toking about YJc haha, got to agreed with that, i talk to much about it, not interesting anymore mah, wait long at my entries, most is about yjc and life in there, hmm, may be i should open up a topic which somehow is a very controversial and a sensitive issue......haha.........like what? talk about gay people? hai yah, as if there no other topic like that..sick of writing about them.....then what, hmm........i have totally no idea what to write, hmm sian-half..........

sian-half, sian-half sian-half !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

so boring liao, haha, nothing to write about? i dunno who out there is willing to read my blog !!!
u know use this blog as a medium to expression myself and unload all the emotional baggage that i have, hmm since last year i start to blogg and well it work, somehoe i dun keep think inside, i express it out here, ani unhappy, here i will pour out my emotion, ya lah who wanna lend their shoulder on me !!!! i am lonely here, accept for the opals which haven forget me , haha

ok lah, i go first ok, if u guys have any interesting topic which u ppl wan me to write about , tag me okie !!!!!!
haha
love u people !!!!!!

Hello !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Hello People !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

It me i am back !!!!!!! you noe me ritex... it been a week since i blog, haha. how are you guys feeling? Have you heard that O level result will be out either on 25 feb or 28 feb, haha it very scary, i dun wan to cry like what happen last year when i got the Malay O level result, haha, i dun want to be the pathetic wimp again,crying over spill milk, i want to have tear of joy now.It scary but that day will come i guess, SO why should I bother talking about it haha, stupid lah.

Haha, today we found out our permanent class sitting, hmm look like my class T17 gonna be separated, although i try not to have an emotional attachment with my class and my new found friends, i cant help it, it still hurt somehow. I hate break up and separation since O level, still miss the class but a similar thing is happen in Yjc, history repeating itself again. It is so cruel, why life is so cruel ! it so bad....why this thing happen? Hmm, guess i should not ask these questions, it's God will, I always believe that whatever happen to someone, something good will happen next, i truly believe that but sometimes i do feel that GOd Test ie very tough....hmm. i am feeling sad and scare for a dear friend of mind, all the bad thing should not happen to her, she dont deserve the disease that happen to her. Futhermore it is showing by the loss of her hair, this too much, i cant stand it. she is still young .What is lay before her is too much...plus her family breaking apart.....too much burden for a 14 year old to bear, it just so sad. When she told me that, i just feel like crying, i am really so sad that this thing can happen to my friend....but i dare not shed a tear coz she did not shed her tear, she trying to be strong for herself...althought she try to ignore it, it still there infront of her eyes....so how? I just hope she wont break down, hope she can stay strong.....but how long the heart of a 14 year old can stand? I hope God please give her a helping hand.

TOday in school, my class start to break up before it even started....there was a fight about the chalet thing, hmm dunno why, people start to show their true colour........it just pathetic of how 16 year old can act like this...childish....wat an insult to all mature people.......too bad i was not there to watch the fun part..the war i mean, u guys muz thing that i am quite evil...but hear me out, if you people see this kind of thing, sit down and observe those kind of thing. Compare it by watching some Children fighting or watch animal planet after that......you will see that there is so many similiarities..........it almost the same how those kids or animal act. I just have to sigh loudly!!! it pathetic , juz plain pathetic, dunno what to say lah, people act so dumb, then i heard got word war somemore....hmm....although i am not there to physically see, i can understand it so well.........hmm, life is NVSS is not fruitless after all....so much thing there make me more wiser and better person, can i use the word "mature"? haha...i dun think so..that word is too high class to describe me haha........

Hey, i Saw Kee nee yestersday !!!!!!!!!!!!! i am so surprise, she is so beautiful with that hair, seriously the only word can describe her is " outstanding" her makeover is so brilliant. I never expect to see her at the Mrt , you noe. SO it was a pleasant surprise that to see that gal ....hmm maybe i should use the word Lady!!! She look so mature ans classy somehow...haha.

Aniway, i went to work on monday !!! so i did standby at SMU and u noe what? Taufik and SLY and was there to perform, hahaha.i scream so loudly haha............so cool ritex....sly start by singing "it my life"..........it was fantastic, follow by ang jing which is even better...nv i tought i would go Gaga over them....haha...the taufik came.....it was even better !!!! the sweetest song is I dream, oh my god, i can describe how he sing it....heavenly is the only thing i can say...

hey , look at the time now. it 5.47 pm...aniway i am in Yjc ritex now..using the library computer u know....haha.. ok lah, i think it is quite late already...got to go soon...

To all those people who is dear to my heart...i hope you have a beautiful life and fill with lot of happiness, Dont feel down when something happen...be strong OK !!! there is always something good happen behind all the misfortune.......

Cya people !!!!

Lots of lOve
Primadonna Hasrul Earth-virgo
Lamenology Inc.
President of GNW NVSS (second term in business)

So the third week of JC life have juz ended..........
should i be happy about it that i manage to hold on in this school this far?

hmm.........what you people think?
Seriously somehow school make me mizz you guys even more........

OK now, i can now commnicate with the people there an well, again it not the same...
i am starting to feel that i am drifting apart from sarala and quincy.....although we are in the YJ
but we are not close animore....everybody busy with their own work, especially sarala i can see that she enjoy herself there.......i am happy for her......look like it me who is not adapting very quickly.......but i manage to get adapted.....

aniway...dunno why........i am starting to enjoy the place there......the warm sunshine and the strong wind at the parade square.........nature have make feel comfortable there.......
I still remember the time at the fourth level of the new block....i would go out and look outside, and see all the plant in the park....enjoying the view,,,,,,,seeing the flower being blown away by the wind, best of all during xinni birthday !.........we saw the rainbow from that view.....it was so beautiful that we start clapping hand until that mr mohammad came......haha........good old days...
it nature, that make my life in north view happy, i love the scenary from the class.......it was outstanding......during raining day, i would stand infront of the railing and let the gust of wind flow through me......the air was so cool and soothing.....i really enjoy the cool wind......hmm...i still remember i talk with the powerpuff club and talk about our problem there.......it was so fun......fill with laughter ,love and care....

BUt what i remember the most is when i know that my friends care for me, and they are always by my side when i was down, hmm, i was crying to hell that i did not do well for the O level mother tongue exam....my eyes become so red and tears cannot stop flowing....i was there again, looking outside, suicidal abit....looking at yishun park, then unexpectedly daryl come and told not to cry....told me to move on and study harder,......quincy then try to hide his penknive from me or i will cut myself,self-mutilation,quincy oso help me out while i was crying in the toilet, haha.........i was that depressed than time...even the teacher try to console me...Mdm Nathan...though she did not teach me....she make a great impact on me for her caring support, hmm....i will appreciate that moment, till the end of my time.......

haha......i still remember.....i talk to quincy, sarala and azhar plus shara about my gender confuse problem.....haha...........hey...i dunno wheter i am gay or a straight at that time........haha......can u believe that.....aniway..i am so confidence that i am a straight now,,,,,,haha....u noe i like someone.....haha.....i find it so comical now....how can i ever like a guy....wahahhahahahaha..........god muz be playing with me back then......testing me until like that.but i appreciate it so much, he make what i am now, though i am still a FAggot, but i am not gay mah..........that great ........haha.........

I really miz u people....hope U people miz me too Or else i would have KICK your ASS
haha...joking joking, u people know that i am not a bad person, hmm u now what i still want to master the art of bitchyness from my Guru, Zhong Xinni, haha........when yeeling gonna SEt Up school Of Lies @ khatib ITE..haha...i wan to be a lecturer there....haha....core module,,,hypocrisy techniques..haha....

ok now got to go!!!!! muack and lot of Love!!!!!

Primadonna Hasrul Earth-virgo....
lamenology Inc.
Former President Of GOssip Network NVSS

ok people !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

WASSUP !!

How are you guys......haha.....muz be bored to death ya? some working until near death and what have you........so why should i even bother to ask wassup? hmm........it juz an expression i guess...haha.........rhectorical question.....i tink............did i use that term correctly?...haha.........lamenology........

So what i have been up to?.......well,,,,,besides whining about Yishun Junior COllege...i have no idea what is going with my life..........so to make it simple for my primitive and unevolve mind , juz say that i go school then go home to sleep......simple concept to understand ritex?
YOU bunch of higher complex organism sure understand me i assume...........if u dont, i guess i have people who is way more dumb than me.......haha....joking joking..........relax arr you know i am not serious.......haha......

OK Let QUIT TOKING ABOUT YIshun JC

i use too much of my entries toking about that dumb school..........hmm.............no comment for now...........i hope forever...........i have enuff of those shits...............i mean acadamicaly..............socially...........i got no problem wit those people,,,,,,,,,,they look kind of nice...... i stress on the words"look kind of".....coz i dont konow which category they are, like pure goody goody, bastard ass, bitchy, he-bitch, bull shitter, rubbish machine, nerd and whatsoever....
the list move on and on................hey U noe what,,,, I tot That MayFLower SEc was A
GaL SCHOOL..............so i never expect to see boys in that uniform........Cross-dresser!!!! haha.........sorry hor........but that have been running in my mind since i noe that Mayflower is a mixed school............if you people are reading this, which i feel u wont
!!!!!!! dont KILL me !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

what dis i say about not toking about YJC?................hmm annoying school !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
YOU see i am complaining about YJC again!!!! Damm...........this show that YJC muz be reallY Fuck UP CHIBai, Kepala BUTOH PUndek SCHOOL !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! no offence, but The SCHOOL have this aura WHIch Say " FUck the STudent, Hate Me"................i can sense it somehow !!!!! it is very strong !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!plus the SCHOOL have no Beautiful Scenary !!!!!!!!!!!!
it is totally like next to a Deserted house..............except for The AUditorium lah..............it look kind of beautiful.............so classy...outstanding............but that is juz like a diamond on a begger face...........can u imagine that?...........gross.....like totally disgusting...............

Moving ON !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
so i am wondering!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! how the Hell did I JOIN The First AId CLUB !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
i am in deep shit !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
More reason to get out OF YJC !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! hey tomolo me going nanyang poly.........hehex cant wait to explore the whole campus !!!!!!!!!
that gonna be so cool!!!!!!!!! nursing COUrse rock !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!but there a JC teacher who dissuade from taking the diploma.,,,,,,,,,,,,,aniway who care what that lady say..............you see, i am using the word lady, usually i use "whore"............so i am being quite nice here.......remember that i am a nice person if your nice to me...........

hmm.....wat more should i say,,,,,,,,,,,oh yah.....i cant stand it...i hate to see another faggot near me,,,,somehow there this competition of faggotness !!!!!!!!!!!!!whahahahaha........what a life........i hate !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! lolX.............i am having a strong competition !!!!!!!!!!!!!! hahax,,,,,,,,,, whatever lah//////////juz ignore me......................i am getting lame !!!!!!!!!haha...........

After Two Week IN YJC

HMM how should i start !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

school is kind of ok, somehow my biological clock work automatically.........can woke up very early nowadays.........................

aniway i have enuff of insulting YJC....dunno what to say about that school animore,,,,,,it a symbol of pure hopelessness

haiz............i cant become the BItch that i wanted to be in T17........the people there look kind of nice,,,though.........quite nice lah.,....the make joke and lame stuff....u noe the normal thing.....
but still i cant get along with them, it seem i am scare to show them my true nature,,,,,,,,,,,,,the faggot me !!!!!!!!!!!!

the one who always screams 24/7 like nobody business,,,,,,,,,,the one who alway talk rubbish....who keep bullshitting........i am not me animore !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

it ironic of me to keep quiet all the time,,,,,,,,,, i am a fish remember, i cant live without talking,,,,,,,,,,,, haiz...............wat happening to me,,,,,,,,,,,,i even forgot hw to become
soft,,,it not very natural to me animore!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

i am gonna die,,,,,,,,,,,,,, i try to accept them as my friends but i still have 4E1 in my heart,,,,,i cant let go of my treasure and move on///.......i am taking too long to overcome this transition........i am so gonna died if i cannot adapt....like a the animal which was selected against by nature....i cannot be the primitive animal....

helor !! people hmm..............it been such a bloody long time since i blog.....i miz doing this,......haha current i am Yjc Now...using the computer here, so me actually now studying like all the nerd this school can offer,,hahaha... u noe what i mean...if u dont ok, i will explain it to you.i am now in the library using the computer....and people around me are studying.......360 degree.people studying or using the com to do some project....haha lamer..............Get a Life people !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!]

Actually i almost quit school today..i hate the bio lecture.the lecturer really suck !!!!!!!!!!
he make bio very hard !!!!! u noe why,coz he did not know how to teach,so disorganize and in desicive............haiz...........irritating.he keep stammering.....hai yah.tat teacher toy with people future lah......useless..................aniwya yesterday got bio surprise test.wah lau ..i nv study..so for the first time i fail BIOlogy...haiz..,my record got spoilt in Yjc...i hate this school but still i am here.......................yawn..............lame.................i am so dead here..............

aniway.......ok for my friends here.they are quite ok lah..can go alopng with them,,,,,,,,so it fine with me,,,, haha yesterday i skip PE lesson,.,,,haha, it is typical of me lah,....i will be sure in trouble,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,haha,that the whole point,i am here to get into trouble.................but it only the first stage lah.wait soon i will make the big hit in Yj.haha...............hope so........haha.......feeling very rebellious nowadays...........haha............aniway today kena caugth for tucking out my shirt, but the DM did not bark like Mr Mohammad lah, he is abit nicer,, but also lame............he keep saying my mom this, my mom that.haha, ask him to shut up lah........i heard the boys have to run ^ round in the track yesterday, Sway...i am going to died........so long,,,,,,,,,,,wah lau,i long time nv jog liao....sure gonna died.also i got make up lesson for pe.............haiz.going to die...........aniway i am going to skip pe lesson...............haha...............put myself in more hot soup.....hey, i feel pontenging school tomolo............got some lame games to do lah.stopid..................waste time liao.may be i try to cabut tomolo.............haha that fun unoe........cabut here aand skip there,it so enjoyable...................haha,having fun breaking school rules....haha

still the loser here 24/7 studing until their brain become shit hahaha.so bad of me.........but i am bad .......that my nature..............Hasrul master of LIes......LOrd Of HYprocrisy,,,,,,,,,,,,,,, u dunno me ..............so are my so called friend here,,,, they dunno that i do not like some of them., hahaha..................it time to reveal the horn of the devil in my head............haha////////////// so bye bye to the halo above ,and now it time to be naughty//haha...........

Junior college??? I cant stand it !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

haiz...........i am crying ritex now....i mIzz North View !!!!!!!!!!

I truly Mizz my Damm School.....I mizz all of you.......Shara i mizz you alot, The three indonesia gal, wartini, sofie and mariani,,, i mizz u alot.....

haiz,,,,,i cannot tahan animore....i cant stand Yishun Jc....is not that it bad, but life is not the same, i dont have my friend....witt me, especially by my side ritex now....so many unfamiliar faces,,,soo many unknow to me...where april and sarah!!!!!! where the nerd club sitting the same class as me.....i feel so lonely there.....i feel so lost...i hate it

there teacher there are quite cold...i mizz mrs chua, mdm rina, mr long, mdm aini, mdm koh and mrs chan, mr david chia, ms lim, mr yazid, ms siti ...those people are my friends...very close to me,,, i tok to them like my best friend, my close friends....i really mizz my sis lesson, mdm rina, it not the same there, i feel so empty,

juz now go back to school, tok to mdm koh, mr david and mrs chua, they realli make mizz north view even more,, they remind me of all the fun teacher...my best friends....mrs chua have always been listening to my problem, i got problem i can ask her for help, ani complain i can always tell mdm rina, she always give me guide, cheer me up, she and me love charmed, then we always tok about charmed, not it seem i lost it all, I dont have that i YjC...it juz a cold barren land in my heart, it seem i have left the Garden of Eden juz to enter the thorny Grass, the no life there,,,,,i have no friend in my class, all of you know me.......i always talk alot !!!!! make people laugh,,,,,but now i cant, i stay quiet all the time...like a rock....this is not me.....i want to enjoy myself there,, Swee kai...and xinni, they alway talk rubbish....there(in Yjc) we no business with each other......

Nobody do funny stuff, I alway scold daryl for his lame joke.....but now i regret it.....i wish you were with me ritex now doing that thing. make me irritated.....now i have nothing, kosong there, i want to see in scold again....and gossip with Chinn Yee and michelle...talk abot Gossip Club !!!!!!!!

Shara , i wish you were with me ritex now, by my side,help me out to go through this,,,,,,,,wish mdm rina, mdm koh and mrs were my teacher......

2005 is here !!

Hmm i was very negative in my last entry !!!!! but i shall say no regret....for i wont regret what i say.........i still stand firm about my thought,,,,,,

Aniway, i too cant start the year with the wrong step either, so i am start the year with



SmileZ!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! LOve AnD PraYeR !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

so hope the year have more blessing !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!