the WEEK have ended!!

cheer!!!
this week was so fun, and I love it so much!!
hehex
why??




Last Wednesday was the installation of Year 1 ambasador. After our 6 months probation, we finally officially become a member of the Ambassodorial Team. We were given our own name card and the ambassador name tag and also the A-team badge. Well, I think it is cool.








so this are the Juniors who manage to be install as an ambassador of Nanyang Polytechnic.
hehe, saw me or not? haha, please say YOu saw me in that picture. LOL..





hehex, well, this is us before the event starts. I got to say this" all of look so smart in it!! hehex.

lets start from the left, that is Cindy, Eve, Khairul, Felicia, Grace aka Gloria, Maria, hasrul duh me. Nazrul and Valerie. Ok, I am suppose to be wearing my contact lenses for that event but then. Lets not wear it. hehex.




dotz, we are like so acting cute. hehex, there was so much laughter and many jokes wear. haha. I love my cca that it is the one of the motivation for me to go to school.



haha, this is the picture of the Evil Queen and it royal Evil subjects. The one sitting down is the Queen of the root of all Evil. We are assign to our royal position. Mine is royal physician.
To know the post click here . hehex. Ok, this is a royal evil formal picture. Must look good, or the queen can really pinch you. It hurts, trust me.



ok, this is an informal picture. hahah, the royal family together, haha. Incase You wonder why that guy is in brown, he is an Alumni.



Jaime and her royal chef




her majesty the Queen and her highness the royal Voodoo Curser. LOL.




After The evenT!! we are ambassador now. haha .time to slack and no more Blazer!! hahaha, ThanKs to Grace and Felicia for making the banner.




Me anD Grace she can really cheer me so much.
haha, She and the Whole of Ateam rawk!!

The Mountain Hermit and the contact lenses.......


ok, that sound so obvious ritex....yes, yes yes, I finally wore this technology call contact lenses.

I find so much trouble putting that damm thing into my eyes.....
after painstakingly pulling my eyelid up down left right, it still cannot fit !! eventually it did lah

in the process, my eyes turn red and my face tooo, and i was crying in the process...

such a pain.....

yes yes yes, I am whinning!!! obviously!!!



so Liyana thought me how to wear the lens, and ok, it stcuk in my eyes.
so next is how to get it out.... that was easy lah.


ok ok, this is another rubbish entry, so got to fly ! bye!!!!



hmmm, i dun think i am going to fly so sooon...haha
well, talk to quincy last nitex, well, he is still the same....not the same physically, i mean not a transexual way lah. ai yoh but more to a chnage in his image....hahaha.......

l0ook like he broke all contact with ppl from nvss, not intentionally lah, coz he is bz in his course. wel, his course is highly stressful, i can understand that. i mizz talking to him, haha, it always not weird and awkwardness does not exist between us. hahaha, so i can be natural with him . LOL whahahahahha, that sure sound weird..haha

The Day I work as a Cleaner.

that is the most disgusting thing that I have ever done. Yup yup totally. dotx.
ok becoming a cleaner at Sentosa is not my cup of tea for sure. haha. Confirm wan.


dotz, My mum think that I am lazing to much at home. Then she bark at my bro to ask me to work. Dotz, I was forcefully brought to Sentosa and clean Up ppl shits. I was actually expecting to work at a condo and clean up the mess there. like cleaning the window and etc.

But I end Up at the incomplete sentosa cove, where the are having AN event there.
so what did I do? they gave me a tong and the black general waste plastic bag , and ask me to pick up litters. Dotz. I pick countless cigarette butt and throwing into the bag.
Oh how gross is that? plus doing that in the open. OH shuck, my ego got hurt pretty badly at first. But soon after that......ok lah..........I still have to pick up rubbish, So much I am paid for this? $45 to work from 8am to 6 pm. Measly $45. LOL
ok ok. still money lah.......

come to think of it? I didnt do anything much except being bbq alive by freaking hot Sun. haiz. i cant stand it.
Plus all other cleaner smoke. Gosh I got a nausea and literally vomit gastric juice.
the superviser was kind enuff to send me home, but in his car his smoke lah . ai yah. smoking can really give me a headache. He was kind to send me home but he din know i vomitted in his car. LOL no that bad lah, I had a plastic bag. Even the face mask( which I got it from yishun polyclinic) cannot filtered out the smoke, haix.................i am still having nause. hai yah. I am so gonna die.........

I mean Like I cant believe myself that I become a cleaner. EEEH<>
ok ok. nextweek my sch gonna start. Yesterday was my last day of attachment. today i become a Cleaner. hmm, well life shuck, what more can I say.....

I am like so sleepy. haha. I had a long day today. In the morning I was attach to Yishun polyclinic. Well, I am there for about a week. Today is the middle of my one week attachment. Well, I learnt alot from the attachment though I do nothing much. Well, that nurses there are very knowledgeble. I am impressed.

Anyway, about 12.30, I had to go to Bukit Batok polyclinic. See some museum call "Gallery of Memories". Haha, well, it is about how nursing started. Though I feel it is lame, I guess there is reason for me to know the roots of my career.

After that, I went to NYP. Got some CCA. stuff to do. I love my CCA so much!!!!!!
I dont know why. MY cca jus turn me on!!

ok, ok. I noe it is lame and uninteresting. My blog is not as interesting as Audi's blog. Some gross stuff will appear out of nowhere and he blog about it. So lucky ritex. LUCKY??? ok, that does not sound ritex. I dont to wake up in the mrt especially after my attachment and saw some carrot sticking out some little boy pants. LOL. wahahahha.

GRoss, gross Gross.......


ok back to me.......


what about me?


LOL. gosh, i really think there alot of ppl painstakingly go to a polyclinic just to get an MC. Fake MC. PLUS got this Ah MAh got high blood pressure hor. Purpose go for health screening so many times. Very Kiasu wan. Or may be Just wants attention from the nurse there. She was already advice how to take care of her high blood pressure but still dare to tell the nurse that she ate salted eagg lah, put alot of sugar in food lah. That is very dumb ritex. Kena council so many time. haha, but nvm lah, it her money anyway.


I love the immunity room. haha. GOt alot of babies come in, so cute . hehe. cute cute cute. Ultra cutee. Can play with them some more. HAhahahahahahahahahahahhHHAHAha

this make me wonder when I am going to start a family. I dont want to have a lot of children. I am afraid that my child would be devilish like me. haha.

K lah, i damm tire. got to go!! bye...

I apologise for the lack of the update.....i was lazy, distracted and unmotivated.
Sorry.

Well, I am hanging by my emotion lately.
Every sad show can put me to tears.Plus this background music on my blog set the mood.
I understand that music may not suit the layout on my blog. Well a disney's classic with a pretty offensive layout is quite an irony. Totally from two different extreme. I suppose it is ok.
My life always have been in the world of contradiction, irony and between. I get the best of both world and also it dirts. I notice I have not always been on the proper path. It is either incomplete or both side cannot match.

Well, what do I mean by this, let me give you an example.
In secondary school I took pure sciences subject without Additional math (what a combination)
Nursing( it is both science and art, so how? so it is in between)


That is just a few example, I wont give anymore example.haha

Haiz, I always wish that I could dissipated in the wind and cease to exist.
I prefer being a mere dust and not go with life. Everyday just get harder, much harder.
I want time pass me by without bothering me so much but now it seem that I am fighting and trying to catch up with it. Where is my free and easy lifestyle gone to? I miss my life before I enter poly dearly. So carefree, not much worries. It was smooth sailing. I don't have sleepless night. I do not need to wake up so early. It's not that I am suit with my life but more like life suiting itself to me. But that time have long gone. Back then I remember I am a compassionate person, every sad news touch my heart but now every death seems meaningless. I grew very cold. May be become numb. People say death is natural thing, but I have never feel it so natural like now.


What have I become? I really wonder where is the road I am walking leads me to. Furthermore is the road which I reluctantly took. Well, I should be appreciative with what I have now, but in the end would all of this be worth while for me? I do not know what going on with me. It seem like I have no control of my life. It is drifting away from where I want it to be. MY hearts bleed feeling this way. I dare not show it. In a stranger eyes, I am a happy. In my eyes (through a mirror obviously) I am quite a failure. A person walking on a his broken dream, unsure amd lost.


Now I wish when swim in a river, my molecules just broke down. Like sugar dissolving.


Well, I am not suicidal lah. But I dont like life now. It seem so hard, so cruel.
I gave up on my family. They are just emotional irritating. I gave up on my class. Shits just keep popping out from no where. I gave on my life. It totally feel apart. I gave up on my own dream.
It just cannot happen.

Every year it get worse......I dont believe there is such of a better year anymore.


But one thing for sure, I never give up my sweet memories be it with my close friend or anyone else. It give me the strength to move on. I will try to find my happiness which seem to be lost..........

First Week of attachment Have ended!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!



haha, great!! I am so happy about it..............................


but but but


it was super tiring..........basically i have stand for few hours...
haiz, my feets was killing me, gosh, after my shift, my feet was pratically swollen
blood was accumilating in my feet.... it hurts so much that it felt like walking on needles...

OUch!! thaaat hurt!!

moral of the story, i need to lose weight, my body weight is killing my feet

i think my calf is getting big.EEww, bllody attachment, they make my calf big


ok lah, today is a short entry ..bye!!

Good Bye to 2005!!!!!


Year 2005 is what I call the year Of MUtiple screw up!! screw UP and screwUp and more screw UP!!.....................

WWWHY screw up?

First screw UP = end up in YJC in first three month course,, waste time sia
second screw UP= fail O level english!!!
third screw up = end up in Nursing course(regret regret regret)
fourth screw UP = sign up for O level english and regret signing up for it
fifth screw UP= have fucking social problem in NYP
sixth screw UP= gain weight tremondously
seventh screw up= signing up for chinese elective
eighth screw up= I am surrounded by people with a mediocre english vocabulary
nineth srew up= I never had a chnace talking to somebody which I think is intelligent

and the list go on.........................


You see I screw up in every major event in my life........
oh yah ! sorry for the late update i was spending time reading books and increase my knowledge (dotx). Yes Audi. sorry for the lack of update!!! now I am updating....


Hello 2006 !!!


so wat will i say about 2006!!

like what I say about 2005 in 2004 : click here


hmm, k lah,

Wish ALL of YOu a HappY new YEAr

one more thing, i change my blogskin!!!
LOL, rocket science!!!