i change my blog. obviously, as you can see.....

i dont feel like myself really. getting older, there is too much reality in it.
too much thinking that i muz do

i am sick of staying in this world. i wanna do something beyond this land, a place beyond the ocean can offer, where the sky is not the limit.

i truly wish i can walk into my fantasy world, juz like alice when she drop into wonderland, but not like that, a little more graceful and elegent will do....

if i have all the power in world, this is how i will create my fantasy world,

when I enter that beautiful world, i would like magical blue portal to open from the sky, letting heaven to show it self, from there, i will descend...
not touching the earth yet, the sky have yet to be explore....
i would come in with a white silky robe with golden lining making up the most beautiful design ever...the first thing that come is swarm of joyful light blue and pink faeries welcoming me,. pulling my robe asking me to join them in their game,

laughing all the way as if time will never end.. the wind came blowing me with most gentle whisper , i can feel it through my hair, eyes and all part of me. so softly, i am floating away by the wind, it soothe my body like and ice-cream entering your mouth, i would just be smiling, enjoying that, then rainbow colour orbs come and encircle me, each of them show me their warmth and they come with beautiful fragrance...

then sound of the ocean calm the sky, putting everything at rest... then come the cotton candy cloud allowing me to rest on it, so then i would jus slumber for a while, the bird will sing me to sleep, the mermaid will play their harp by the shore. when night come, the beautiful heaven will reveal all it secret, the star will tell it stories... all the horoscope will be moving around showing off their skill and talent, the virgo will sing a song until the most evil heart can be purify,

then it is time to go to the ocean, there softly i will feel the water beneath my feet. i will be walking on water. walking toward the land, then the enchanted forest will let out all it flowers they will form a path , like a red carpet for me to walk on.... to reach the forest...the fishes will escort me to the land, then the unicorn will emerge and give me a ride in to the forest, and then we will on rest on a giant tree beside the enchanted lake, the moon is up high shinin it light on the water, there a lady of the lake will rise from the water with her harp and sing us to sleep, when she sing all the night flower will bloom and colourful will orbs will float around the forest playing with the faeries.......

haha
that is my fantasy world.............
what is yours.....?

well, I have been thinking?? hmm, some of u blog? juz like me....but then
why do we blog in the first place?? what was our true objective with blogging?

so well, i my opinion, blogging is a medium for me to express my emotion. well, i feel it is kind of pathetic doing so. I got to admit blogging is somehow a medium for us too seek attention from others. well, isnt is so low just to go www.blogger.com and come and talk about our problem and allow any tom,dick and harry to know about it. it is somehow like cleaning dirty lining in public. plus it even more lowly to use this blog as a medium to express ur anger. you use the blog and insult some of your teachers, friends, and even your own love ones here. goodness, that is like so disgusting....plus it is a coward behavior i feel, well, if u gt an issue with someone, u shld nt involve a third party, that fall in another category call bitching. lolz, haha

hey, i am not trying to say i am holy person and i dun do such stuff above, i am guilty of that too,, haha, it juz that someone have juz enlightened me about the blog....

on the other hand, if the blog can be use to spread new idea, wont it be great, a great sample is Pearlene blog. well, i am truly impress about what she ritex, there is substance and things which we can think about. well, i truly feel if blog can be use that way(honestly, i feel that is hard) it can be beneficial to yourself and the reader. Talk about critical thinking and questioning, we do not need accept thing as a whole, we muz question and ask why??................

yawn!!!! woke up too early sia!!!!

niway, Nyp juz had it CCA open house-----> guess what i join???

haha, i join some lame society club,

first i join is the School Of health sciences Club
second IS NYP ambassader Club
third is NYp Pal club
lastlY Leo CLUB

wahhahaha, i join such club sia????????
wat the hell??? haha, as long it can give me high CCA point that will be fine.....

BUT you see, i do not have any sport CCA.haiz. me joining sport CCA? haha, weird ritex, haha
i have been thinking and i am really interested to join JUDO!
lolz, haiz, so weird, but i gt this urge to sign up for it, haiz, aniway, i din sign up for it....
lolz
nobody is joining it, lolz, somebody please join judo with me!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Finally mY holiday Start!!!!

Haha, wat a beautiful saturday!!! haha, duh, i make today as an official start for my so called-holiday!!!

haha, at least no need to go to school!!! but, so much work to do !!!
got nursing intervention, plus client's master problem list to finish, got sociology to finish too...plus when school reopen it is bio practical exam!!! so all this are just work!!!! it is I.C.A!!!!! it mean in course assessment, well, i think that wat it mean, anyway, it consist of thirty-percent of our overall mark!!! so it is should not be taking lightly!!!

so why did they give us this holiday in the first place! i find this totally insignificant. well, i must be thankful for this. ok, i am complaining like a bitch again. i am trying to get rid of this bad habit. well, it is hard. i have been doing this all my life and i am trying to change that. haha. i think i can do it.

i am quite delighted that i pass my clinical retest. haha, my nervous break down cause me to fail in the first round. Well, my retest is not an ordinary one. something funny happen you know. haha, ok before the retest, we have to attend this remedial thingy, at 8 am to 9 am, then our test will start 9 am to 10 am. lolz, we go to sch so inlogically in the morning.....

well, i was late as usual, but the lecturer came later, lolz, she was a gentle lecturer, so sweet sia. But dun know that she came in angrily, scolding the student. why???? aniway, when we enter the clinical lab, we just stand around. coz no instruction was given, the the lecturer a.k.a butterfly, we call her butterfly coz she call herself that lah, haha. moving on the butterfly scream in class and say" what u people waiting for. go take ur equipment". i was like very annoyed by her attitude, even more i was puzzle by her action. why she acting like this. then another lecturer came, Bella is her name, she came and sort out all the papers. lolz. while butterfly was screaming inside , Bella was too quite. then butterfly and go and say loudly to Bella," bella iam very busy u know. I got five hour straight lecture and tutorial. I got no time for this." haha, Bella just somehow ignore her....keeping quite....

then when remedial start, bella take care of these students and butterfly take care of me and this gal, dunno who she i sl ah, but we juz need a model for the test, she got no model, me gt no modal, so i become her modal she become mine lor, so when butterfly sat down, she say" actuall i am nt angry with u student. i am angry with bella!!!! " lolz, there she go complaining about bella to me and that gal, i think her name is joey, aniway she blah blah blah about bella. haha, she can even say" very gud u have lecturer like me, nt like..." eyes hinting to Bella. I was like, asshole!! u shld be working together ritex....loh, why complain all this shits to me, gosh, i became the middle man again, haha....i was there ,i juz nod my head and say, i understand!!! what the hell. obvious i was lying. haha. i juz want to pass this test, and get out of here, haha...

gudness, lecturer acting like children, lolz, at least i have the honour in experiencing thing!!!!! lecturer= children, hahaha, aniway, butterfly trying to prove her point, she let me pass so easily, haha Bella so long-winded sia, thank god i din have Bella, no need case study, ishe say, here, ur remidial very gud alreADY, no need to take the test, i let u pass ok, wahahaha so comical, i pass becoz of some lecturer fighting, hahaha, gosh, what a life in a poly!!!!!!

Yoz!!! wassup people!!!

haha, well i am blogging....
haha, obviously!!!!!

i am kind of glad today!!!!
Lolx, today go buy gift for sarala and quincy....
haha their bday is tomolo!!!!!!!!!!

so i juz wanna wish u people Happy b'day!!!!!!
a year older , i hope u will be a year wiser!!!!! lolx
and enjoy life more!!!!!

aniway, today saw and talk alot to many north view friends!!!

today meet up with sarala and quincy to give my gifts
then saw kak sri and kavitha!!!!
then amalina, then it is RUth!!!!

isnt that great!!! plus today i visit north view and they are having a SJAB camp somemore....that is like so cool!!!

wat a way to start my monday!!!!!!
plus i go intro Her to quincy and sarala!!!
LOlx, haha....
i am glad that she is quite comfortable with that Gemini partner.
haha.....

i am very happy!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
feeling that i am at the top of the word!!!!
lolx. jus ignore me lah!!!!
so dumb!!!

please be inform that i am going to use alot of vulgarities in this entry....


FUCK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! fuck it !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
i screw up my first Nursing exam !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
wat the fuck!!!! knn.........................

well, if i fail this test this mean there is also many more failure!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
fuck, wat the hell!!!! how could i fail my practical!!!!!

lolz, i was like really fucking stupid in the fucking room...i should have not been so bloody overy fucking nervous!!! so the fucking problem is that i hate myself now for being fucking stupid!!!!!

so wat happen actually!!
i was given this case about this breathless old man, so u cannot put the thermometer at the ritex?
isnt that logical?
well, of course i told the lecturer i would take the temperature from the axilla(armpit)
so, i go prepared the thermometer..
put the thermometer in cover....

then u noe what, i stupidly put in the mouth!!!!!!!!!!!!
wat the fuck!!! obvious u shld put at the axilla since u say already!! but bloody hell i go put at the armpit!!
so fucking stupid!!!!!!!!!!!!
well all this thank to my nervousness......

then i am suppose to the pulse!!! u noe what, i could nt feeling, for that one minutes my modal was dead...wat the hell? how the fuck i cannot feel the pulse ??

chibai!!! the feel i miscount, i took the pulse ans say it about 60+ per min, the lecturer ask me to take 4 times, well, it a fail, my reading was different frm the lecterur, she gt 80+ per min....

wat the fuck. mine was so far back!!!!!!! haiz...................................................................................................................fucking dumb///

this does not mean nursing is easy either, it so faucking hard, i had my theory test yesterday then gt so many alien jaggon like tachycardia, postural hypotension, apnea, bradypnea, stomatitis, cheilosis, glossitis....so wat the helll!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! how the fuck am i suppose to know???fuck it lah...so hard!!!! saying nursing is easy is an understatement!!!!