I am going Nursing!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
i dunno whether i shld be happy or not !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
haiz....may be that y i am geting fat !!!!!!!

Y life send all this trouble on an already trouble mind !!!

The camera on my phone is spoilt !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
damn!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
why!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
haiz!!!!!!!!!!!
haiz!!!!!!!!!!!!
i am 70 kg!!!!!!!!!!!!!
haiz!!!!!!!!!
WHY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! why!!!!!!!!!!!! why!!!!!!!!!!!
i used to be 64kg and in 2 weeks i bcome 70kg!!!!!!
haiz...........help !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Fuck !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I am getting fat !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
In 2 week i gain 6 kg !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
fuck at this rate i am going to be an ultra fat ass !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
help !!!!!!!!!!!!!
damn it.how could i be so fat !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! damn!!!!!!!!!
my face is bloated already !!!!!!!!!
damn , i got to get out. i cannot stay at home often !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
help !!!!!!!!!

LOLX, it time for hunger strike!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
it time for me to starve myself !!!!!!!!!!!!!!
but i cant help it!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
haiz...........
wat wrong wit me ?

helorrr!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
haha, lolx, my blog is so boring, lame !!!!!!!!!!

yeah, it is so lame.

aniway!!!!!!!!!!!!life is quite interesting this week !!!!!!!!!!
haha, okie , hmm, let begin, well i find out that an idiotz have the same birth date as my 1st Bro. u noe why i say that? it becoz that everytime my bro bday come, i am going to remember that idiotz bday. haiz bad memories, !!! haha, joking joking, shuck this mean im gonna remember that guy for life. well, i tink so. Anyway, my 1st bro bday is on 16 feb. haha, does that ring a bell to any of you. well, he turn twenty- two that day !!!! lolx, he is so old !!!
haha, jkjk,

aniway, that morning we go safra yishun and play bowling, haha,it is so fun!!
lolx, play until so tired. finger start to ache. but still, it is not enough !!!!
then evening go marina bay ,go for more bowling. haha,,,lolz, i dunno why, the bowling ball at marina seem to be alot heavier.haha. damn, heavy, haha, aniway, on the way there, something funny happen, haha, ok my bro and me were at Yishun Mrt, Then i met shara and michelle there, haha, then they thought my brother was my father !!! i was like -_-". haha
Helor !!!!!!!!!!! he jus turn twenty two. he not that old !!!! I protest again, my bro is not old !!!
haha, well, come to think of it, i still dun tink he is old !!!

ok, then. moving on. well other day were quite normal. excpet my bro step on my glasses on friday!!!!!!!!! lolz. that was my bday gift!!! aniway, i bought another pair of glases. hmm it blue !!!!!! my gosh, i dun think i suit me. well , i bought in an impulse. to me, it look very nice, it so nice !!!! hahaha, it gonna look weird on me. lolx, me so fat already, where those kind of stuff, make even look more weird. my gosh, within one week, i gain 3 kg, shuck. i am so fat !!!!!!!!!!!!!! i am so fat !!!!!!!!!!!!!! I am sooooooooo FatTTTTTTTTTTTTTTT for crying OUT LOUD!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! god, somebody help me OUT !!!!!!!!!! help!!!!!!!!!

Helo !!!!!!!!!!
haha, for a quite sometimes i did not blog. haha
it all comes with a simple reason, it is because my computer broke down. hehex
something went wrong with the hard disk. well, i dont know what it mean by that. Anyway, my brothers brought the cpu to some shop to repair.Now i must fork up $30. Well, the total cost is $130. but hey, they are the ones who use the com 24/7. Haiz, .......

Let recap what i do last week?? where should i begin?
ok got it. On monday i went to the movies, go watch Hitch. hehex, that is a very funny show.
so fun !!!!!!!!

next is on thurdays, hmm, ok that day, i went out to play badminton with my yj friends. the whole day was very fun until!!!!!!!!!! i was about to go home. I was llining up waiting for the 806 bus and then, somebody tap me at the back, to my surprise i saw anjana, but to my horror i saw ruth besides her. LOLx, i am the most unluckiest person that day. well, guess i should not talk about insignificant people. haha

then yesterday, i went to hafizah bday . lolx. kind of fun, well that dumb Ali was teasing me like all the time. Super irritant. haiz.......

so that it , that my life. super sian..... ultra boring

okie okie, i change my blog song. i hate listening to jesse mcartney. I juz sick of that damm beautiful soul song. boring !!!!!!!!!! haha

I never feel so alive today. The weather is beautiful. I love the gust of wind into my house. Today I feel a sense of peace. I feel so calm. I cannot simply describe what I feel actually. It something out of this world. Ok I get it. Today is just simply perfect. I am smiling. I am happy. I have nothing much to worry about. Everything is falling into their places. Life is so beautiful. I really hope i can stay like this forever. Maybe, it is a good thing I cannot enter a Junior College. Maybe God want me to see the other side of life beside books. I never feel so fresh and rejuvenate today. Thing are getting better for me. Though I always feel lonely but now it does not matter anymore. It nothing now. My family is here. I really appreciate them alot. Friends to me are just like a bonus of life. I can still live without them. I just need the one i care most to be on my sides. Again, I hope this day will stay forever.


I just cannot wait to retake my english examination again. I am going to face that "thing" head on. I will strike and succeed. Just as how i retake my mother tongue examination, i achieve better result than the last time. I make sure this happen. I will not waste this second chance of mind to redeem myself.

Hey, I guess polytechnic is going to start earlier this year. I simply cannot wait for it to start. I hope it can start earlier. haha. I guess may be people are still enjoying thier longest holiday of their lifetime. I feel so relax. I guess I should use the theme of "Timon and Pumba" which is Hakuna matata. It mean " no worry". haha, I should apply that in my life.

I feel my soul is hanging in the air. I feel so free. With all the wind blowing, i cannot help feeling that way. OK how about i feel that i am at the top of the world!!!!!!!!

Wait, what the time now? Gosh, i feel that the disrupter of my life is coming here. I think it is close. That is none other that my younger brother!!
haha. Where is he? hmm, should be home by now? haha, that guy is making me worried. haiz. see even though he is not at home, he already ruin my peaceful state of mind. wahahaha. i am joking only. He is my only precious younger brother. LOL, how did my eldeest brother handle the three of us. Tough job I guess.

Haha, ok. I have enough writing stuff. Well, the blog is for me to pour my heart out. I have achieve it purpose. Ok, now, got to go.

this is also very nice !!!!!!!!!!!! 

i also like this 

LOL, so cuteeeeeeeeeee 

hey,it been days since i blog!! When i made my decision about my choice of courses in poly. I did that in desperation. I just put whatever there is an apply. At that moment, i just want to get over it and let it finish as soon as possible. Well, i did not give much thought when i apply. In my heart, i just cant be bother with it. I was very "bo chap" in that sense. I did that Jae thingy on tuesday. It is kind of early to apply. Others are still thinking what to apply. Haha, anyway i guess it is a blessing in disgust because I did not suffer any server traffic jam. Lucky for me, my application went smoothly.

Moving, I felt that there no point to be depress. In other words, i got over my depressing. Now I won't feel sorry for myself anymore. Like the phoenix that rise from the ashes, i now regain my spirit to change my destiny. I take back all my broken part and soar again. Whatever the course I go, I know I will succeed. My self-esteem is no longer ruin and my spirit have return to it original form. I will be as optimistic as ever. I wont let anything bring me down anymore,

Now i realise that my friends have abandoned me. After the O level result, where is all my dear friend? Where is their word of comfort? Well, whatever it is, i hope u may succeed wherever u go. Don't look down on me or think me as dirt already but still like dust I will rise. Though the future is uncertain, I am willing to face it. I face this failure and I have learn to stand again. I am ready to work hard. My family is still there to support. My cousin have given great support and encouragement to me. I dare to venture into this new chapter of my life. Like the wind which blow all the bad memories away, the candles of hope will relit for me.

ok now, hmmm, i am still recovering from a shocking result that i get for O level. well i fail English, got aD7. My overall was not that bad. Bio and chem i got A2. Physic, malay and Math I got a B3. Combine humanities i got a B4. shuck i got no C at all but my english put everything insignificant!!!!!! i am so damn

I was feeling suicidal for the last two days. on tuesday i learnt how to cut myself, plus i have been planning my death, but why should I die early? i ask myself again and i figure out that I am a great asset to the world. so i cant die that easily. The future is very scary somehow, i dunno why, thinking about the future make scare to move ahead !!

anyway, i quited Yjc already, no point staying there anymore ritex, hey i think i am one of the earliest to submit my jae application. lolx, many are still thinking about what they should do in their life, but me? hehex, i juz put all the courses that i like in Nanyang Poly. hehex ok now, the courses i put all at nanyang poly, i only choose nanyang poly, haha, coz it is the closes to my house, can wake up late atleast, haha, ignore, I really hope i can go molecular biotechnology. or chemical engineering, that the course which i like, but if cant, i would be going to Nursing course i guess, well i tell everyone that i am going nursing. so whatever happen i will not be disappointed if i cant get those two. Nursing is not bad either. i can have a great career with it. so but how i am going a degree or something? that is what have been bugging me. how can i get a degree or go to university? siann. scary, i am thinking of long term but i am not so sure which one is the right path. haiz........................................................................how to go to University like this????????????????