second day in KKH. well, i have nothing much to do there. My only job is to play with the kids.

I finally realised why i do not like children. The reason is simple, I cant stand their crying. Really. I find it very irritating and the most of the time stressful.
Their crying is like a One GIANT HAMMEr that is hitting on the nerve. REmember brain freeze? It is so painful. THIs time it is triple the pain.

Well, babies are cute too but you dont have much interesting exchange of ideas with them. Coz firstly they cant talk. Secondly, they are literally just born yesterday.
What I like most is too pinch the cheek so hard! but i have not done that or else that is called abuse.

lol. ok now, I got to go.....time to sleep!

I just could not sleep. I have the urge to use the computer but I do not know what to do with it. So I decided to blog instead. Like saying something random, stupid and illogical.

Well, it's fun being illogical and irrationale at times. It feels like setting free the inner nature in me. So from a human logical mind to a very disturbing instinctive mode. Ta daa!!! but well, the conversion to the animal me only reached up to 2% at the max.

HEhex, I received some Sms about being able to see the planet Mars tonight! You Know what, it is completely BOGUS!! Well, I see no mars! But I saw some panties being hung, waiting to be dry by the luna power of the moon.Haiz!! I am guilty of doing that too except that I do not use panties!!

Anyway, I feeling like slapping my nurse manager with a sotong(squid). After calling her up to change my clinical posting date and clear some wrong info, she have done none. hello! My attachment is going to commence next week but still this little-miss-yes-I-will-do-the-changes-by-friday still confuse me whether I should go ward 62 or 66.
I should have hired an assassin who would kill her for free. LOL.

ok, now I got the urge to sleep! Yawn!! YAWWWWWWWWWWWWWWNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNN!!
YYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNN

wassup!!! how you all doing?

Obviously, you all know my exam is like so over. LOL Read the tagboard. Haha
Well, i must be the last one in the whole of shs nursing to do blog about this.

LOL, what the hell! who care?

so, i was happy that last wednesday morning because that day was my last paper. As usual I did this semester finale of mugging. I did some essay and did some thinking.
I can actually think!! Hurray!! but as usual it is short-lived, my brain turn bonkers half hour later. heck it, I can still salvaged some info up my ass then into my brain. So now you all actually know how polluted my brain is.

This is the first time I really study for an examination( i mean for NYP module lah)
I thought I could do well for the paper that day. yes i thoughT! but I thought wrong! fine! I know, I thought wrong!

Turn out during the last paper, i went straight to hell to meet ,Hades, lord of the underworld. And have chat with King Yama too, another lord of the underworld taoist version.

That Paper was a total KAMIKAZE.
All the way, I kucing kurap(malay version for BULLSHIT) for the paper.
I have to even consult GrandMAMA luck for some help! Me-nI-my-ni-me-ni-mo catch the spider up the wall. Well, look on the bright side, I have 25% chance of getting the write answer. bull!!

During exAMInation, i didnt do myself any justice. I just eat!! When I am bored, I eat! Mild stress= food! that the equation for me. Plus due to my upbringing, i am suffering from something call clean plate syndrome. Damn!

Honestly, When I told someone that I am 84 kg. They dont believe me. They said this, " You dont look like one!". What the fuck is that all about. Honey, obviously I am fat and I am 84kg that the real deal.

1 1/2 years ago, Size 32 don't fit me. IT is too loose for my ass. But now, I am wearing size 36. And that big!!

Initially, I was 64kg before I entered NYP but now I am 84kg.
Net different of 20kg. YEs. I went through this really bad eating disorder. I am still suffering from it now. You wanna know the differences? You should look at the ass. BUT I dont take any ass picture when I was 64 kg. I only have the face pic!

behold!! a picture when I was 64kg.



Monday, December 20, 2004.

at least that time, I still have a neck and I do not possessed a double chin.

Now When I am 84 kg!



Monday, August 14, 2006.

I have a double fat chin. woo, That is is depressing.....I need help.


Anyway.....
Next WEEK! I am going OF to KKH!! THE pediatric Ward! I hate Children!! Not hate lah, but I just could not handle them. TaK Boleh Angkat( cant stand it). wish me luck.

5 years ago, I was just a 13 year old who have just entered a secondary school.
From there, my life changed and I met with many great people who just make my secondary school life freaking wonderful!

5 snack I enjoy;
Ice-Kacang
Chewing Gum
All sort of ice-cream
Durians
Custard puff

5 song I know all the Lyric;
Round round(sugababes)
here with me(dido)
In the middle(sugababes)
Stronger(sugababes)
White flag(dido)

5 things I would with 100 million dollars;
Buy lots and lots of candles
Build my own Villa beside a lake
Build a educational institution for the poor
Support nursing research
save 30 million for my heir( if I am able to have one)

5 place I would run away to;
Yishun Pond
my grandpa house
my aunt house
My grandma house
your house

5 things I will never wear;
Pink
G-string
bra
pad
ear stud

5 bad habits;
i cant keep a secret
lazy
procastinator
clean plate syndrome
i hate tidying up my closet

5 biggest joy;
My family
My friends
a-team
pokemon(lol)
Candles!!

5 famous people I would date:
No interest in dating anyone!

5 people to do this:
Ruth
Audi
Tian yu
(lol, 3 is enuff)

out!>>>>>>>>>>>

My exams starts tomorrow. Now I am here writing a suicide note. LOL. No lah! I just return home after studying for few hours. Well, most would know where I usually study. So after attachment, life is kind of boring.

Except on MOnday!!

I meet up with Quincy and Ruth. haha.

Well, we got alot of catching up to do. Played some game for a little while but it is sure fun. Just like old times. Well, to remember that day! we took neoprints!! haha. I just love neoprints!!











This is my favourite shot! LOL





We still cant get enough of taking picture! so we decided to take more using our phone. HAHA. it been a long time since we had a shot together. the only picture that I have with only us together was this one.





LOL, haha. i think it was around sec 2-3? haha. but for sure, I have more picture of Ruth and Quincy now.

Back to books!!


ok, attachment at SGH ward 76 have benn a fruitful one. I really learn alot and I am able to improve my clinical skills. All this cannot be done without a good clinical instructor and also great nurses at ward 76. Their teaching is so valuable. In the last 3 weeks, i came across alot of weird pathology and how it manifest itself in reality. All the theories in school does not prepared me for the challenges ahead. The split-second decision that need to be done when a problem arise.


I came across a patient who is bleeding internally. I was sucking out his gastric juice(by using a syringe)from his nasogastric tube but instead of gastric juice, a red bloody fluid came out instead. It was blood. Alot of it. it was quite shocking but it is good experieced.

To my favourite apek, i hope you get well soon. You have been such a great patient. Until now, I still think about you, whether you are alright or have your wound heal already. You make my clinical attachment fun.

Next, I was watching the NDP encore telecast on mediocorp channel 5, gosh, they make the event look so horrible. But I know I have fun doing the duty. Now NDP is over, I dont know what to look forward to. Plus attachment is over, I am feeling even more bored now. Though i have exams next week and i should be studying, now i see that exams is not going to be useful.

You may have all the theories stuck in your head, all in the detailed but still it will not help you much in reality.Whatever you have studied,if you do know how to apply it in real life, you will lose out. You may Aces is every subject there is
but if have no experieced, you are back to zero. Experieced in the field you are going to pursue is important. I am not what I am now, if my school did not send me for attachment. Communication skills with client/patients is not something you can master straight out from the book. Trying to balance the pros and cons of every decision that you make on a real human life is not that easy. For every decision, there is a risk involved. When a crisis happen, you can't just go to a book,open up to the right page and find the answers. All this should be something innate.
You need experieced to achieved such standard.

I thanked my school and my cca for exposing me to reality. Now I can see how life work. Plus, in my course specifically, you can see lots of trouble of a person life.
Not from books or tv. It is now infront of you.

many young singaporean are still in dreamland. Sitting behind their desk, doing their problem sum, geography essay and chemical equation. Clueless on how really life function. Not seeing yet, the ugly singaporean out there, the sick, the despair elderly whose child did not visit them for a such a long time. It is quite sad to see all those stuff.

i believed it is time for the youth of the nation to go out of their comfort zone and see what truly life is....

Last day of attachment! hehex, hurray! next week exam! boo!!!


9/8/06

Ndp was so great!!~ I like the colourful costume, music and the firework! Beautiful!

as usual, typical Singaporean would only give comment- non-constructive ones.
Bunch of sour grapes! get the tickets next time ass!


i love the guard of honour!! So cool! GUARD OF HONOUR!!! I love the NAVY Uniform!
Next is the Air force! So manly! LOL

singing the medley is the best part! singing out loud in the open. HAha fun fun fun.
You can't do this at home!

Then the fire! undescribable! So beautiful! I become at kid again when they play the firework! haha

Overall I had alot of fun, the post NDP party was fun too! Dancing to the music. cool! after that NDP, an army guy use the stadium big screen to propose to his girlfriend! So romantic! so cool! haha, the camera then zoom to the lady who is now in tears due to the surprised! HAhaha, that is something you dont get to see in the TV! haha.

4/08/06

I saw myself on channel news asia! LOL, at least I don't look like an idiot on tv! whahahahahaha.


kden, got to go.

I have no idea why every week I have this guy barking at my tagboard reminding me to update this blog!

I have attachment for crying out loud! I am working! i have to go home/return home at humanly impossible time! I am working, not sitting down shake leg.


so this week I have 6 out of 7 days of working time which include today. a saturday!
as much as I want to blog about my clinical experienced! I cant coz it is just unethical! yes! as an adult now, you people should be ethical! especially being in this career!


so now you know the reason why I cant blog! ok....

Thank you for your cooperation!

my mum just got fired! and she is so happy about it! damn! I am so fucked!

it is 1st August!

Happy Nurses DAy!

to all those angels who work hard to bring smile and comfort to people who need help!