Better In Time

t's been the longest winter without you
I didn't know where to turn to
See somehow I can't forget you
After all that we've been through

Go in, come in, thought I heard a knock
Who's there? No one, thinking that I deserved it
Now I realize that I really didn't know
You didn't notice, you mean everything
Quickly I'm learning to love again
All I know is, I'ma be okay

Thought I couldn't live without you
It's gonna hurt when it heals too, oh yeah
(It'll all get better in time)
Even though I really loved you
I'm gonna smile 'cause I deserve to
(It'll all get better in time)

How could I turn on the TV
Without something there to remind me?
Was it all that easy
To just put aside your feelings?

If I'm dreaming, don't wanna let, hurt my feelings
But that's the path, I believe in
And I know that, time will heal it
You didn't notice, you mean everything
Quickly I'm learning to love again
All I know is, I'ma be okay

Thought I couldn't live without you
It's gonna hurt when it heals too, oh yeah
(It'll all get better in time)
Even though I really loved you
I'm gonna smile 'cause I deserve to
(It'll all get better in time)

Since there's no more you and me
It's time I let you go so I can be free
And live my life how it should be
No matter how hard it is, I'll be fine without you
Yes, I will

Thought I couldn't live without you
It's gonna hurt when it heals too, oh
(It'll all get better in time)
Even though I really loved you
I'm gonna smile 'cause I deserve to, yes, I do
(It'll all get better in time)

Thought I couldn't live without you
It's gonna hurt when it heals too, yeah
(It'll all get better in time)
And even though I really loved you
I'm gonna smile 'cause I deserve to

Warwick Avenue

When I get to Warwick Avenue
Meet me by the entrance of the tube
We can talk things over little time
But promise me you wont stand by the light

When I get to Warwick Avenue
Please draw the past and be true
Don’t say we’re okay
Just because I’m here
You hurt me bad but I wont shed a tear

I’m leaving you for the last time baby
You think you’re loving,
But you don’t love me
And I’ve been confused
Outta my mind lately
You think you’re loving,
But I want to be free, baby
You’ve hurt me.

When I get to Warwick Avenue
We’ll spend an hour but no more than two
Our only chance to speak once more
I showed you answers, now here’s the door

When I get to Warwick Avenue
I’ll tell baby there we’re through


Cause I’m leaving you for the last time baby
You think you’re loving,
But you don’t love me
And I’ve been confused
An outta my mind lately
You think you’re loving,
But you don’t love me
I want to be free, baby
You’ve hurt me.

All the days spent together
I wish for better,
And I didn’t want the train to come
Now it’s departed, I’m broken hearted
Seems like we never started
All those days spent together
When I wished for better
And I didn’t want the train to come.
No, no.

You think you’re loving
But you don’t love me
I want to be free, baby
You’ve hurt me
You don’t love me
I want to be free
Baby you’ve hurt me

Don't Dream It's Over

There is freedom within
There is freedom without
Try to catch the deluge in a paper cup
There's a battle ahead
Many battles are lost
But you'll never reach the end of the road
While you're traveling with me

CHORUS:
Hey now, hey now
Don't dream it's over
Hey now, hey now
When the world comes in
They come, they come
To build a wall between us
We know they won't win

Now I'm towing my car
There's a hole in the roof
My possessions are causing me suspicion but there's no proof
In the paper today
Tales of war and of waste
But you turn right over to the TV page

CHORUS

Now I'm walking again
To the beat of a drum
And I'm counting the steps to the door of your heart
Only shadows ahead
Barely clearing the roof
Get to know the feeling of liberation and relief

CHORUS

REPEAT UNTIL FADE:
Hey now, hey now
Don't dream it's over
Hey now, hey now
When the world comes in

Terra

It've been 7 years since I heard this piece of music.

You are probably listening to it right now.

This music is called Terra theme. It is compose by Nobuo Uematsu.

I first heard this while playing this game Final Fantasy IX and until now

I am captivated by it. In Final Fantasy IX, terra is another dimensional where people

of the past civilisation still lingered. Their soul is kept in these vessel call genome.

I was secondary 1 when I completed the game. After that, I love replaying the game so that i can reach the stage where this music is played. The game have 4 disc and this music is only played on disc number 4th. LOL.

After that I learnt the art of downloading and download this song. I burnt it to a CD and listen to it through my disc man. Yes! a disc man! that was in our era. I still kept the music somehow until now. If I ever lose it, it would always be ready to be download.

This music have always give me a sense of calm and a great imagination.

The harp that is use is so soothing that many time I listen to it repeatedly before I go to sleep.

I still do that.

When I first listened to this, I always imagine I am in this blue world. Much like a heaven and the cloud is like a cushion for me to rest. like a blue cotton candy. And in this world, I will fly freely to my heart content. Then there is little pixies and fairies flying around me and embracing me in a warm welcome. a place where pain and loneliness never exist. What I feel when I listen to this is simply undescribable.
LOL! my imagination gone wild huh! haha.

Terra have able me to keep in touch with my thoughts and imagination when I was 13.
I may be an adult now but I am happy that I have still have that kid in me. At least I can still fantasize and imagine living in a palace on cloud and a place when my soul roam freely. haha.


That is my Terra! My beautiful Terra!

I hope you find your own Terra!

Life reclaimed! I miss my royals.

I am taking back my life. Pieces by pieces. Now the portrait is almost finish.
I have learnt to adapt with this new life of mine! I shall say it is like a rebirth.
I am looking at things in a new way! No longer feeling frustrated. No longer feel lost.


I have a new direction now. I am going to return to being a nurse soon! I shall work for SGH.
It took me alot of courage to call up SGH HR and tell them about my condition. I was lost!
I dont know whether I am capable of working. My life was on a halt. like it is hanging of the edge of a sword. HR say I could return to work. It took them 3 days to get back to me. In those 3 days, I told myself, pls dun call me. May be I am not ready to work. gosh, I never felt so much uncertainty.

HAHA. They call up in the end! I went for my medical check-up! and I am fit to work!
LOL. August 11 is the day! Now i cant wait to get back to work! 5 months of holidays and recuperating is enough. Life is back on track.

I miss my royal.



Gosh! I miss all of you to bits and pieces. I know we are moving through some rough transition in our life. Some tougher than the others. Some of us are soul searching and trying to figure out what we really wanna do with our life now that so many changes happening so fast. Look like life after poly is harder than it seem. Oh God, I miss all of you! Cant stopping thinking about you guys and I hope think will return as the way they were before.

I was reading 3 envelopes of warm fuzzy that we got from our ateam annual camp. One envelope for each year. I miss all the time fun times we had. Those warm fuzzy still make my heart felt so much love. May be you should find that warm fuzzy and read it again. and I am going to restore the happiness that I once had. Appreciate the little things that life gave me.

Dear royals, take care alright! We should live life happily like what we used to be. That is something worth fighting for. Lots of hugs and love!