Finally I got time for myself!!


Lots of things to say but I will simply make it short!


First thing first!

Attachment begin. There is alot of stuff to do. I don't even have time to go for my 2nd break which I usually wont miss. But hell, now I am year 2 student, the work load is more. Well, one week of attachment have ended, 2 more weeks to go. HELL! I am like so dreading it, plus I have to stand most of the time. Can you imagine 82 kg worth of pressure on the my leg, that hurts alot.
So for this week, i have been working in the morning shift, well bathing patients and changing diapers. haha. I don't know why i am starting to have awkward feeling when I am changing diapers. Usually I do not have this " eeeky" feeling but I had stroke of it. Weird. Plus I did not do a whole week of attachment, technically thursday and friday I was having School health services but I only did on thursday. I will tell you later lah.

Then come wednesday, I was having morning shift that day. So I typically I have to wake up at 4.50 am. I know I know, it is humanly not possible. But i remember some ad saying " impossible in nothing". LOL. That day my legs was killing me! Tak boleh angkat! Plus I was very sleepy too! so shift ended at 3 pm, reached yishun about
4.30 pm. But that wasnt the end of it, I reached home, took a shower and get ready to go NYP for some NDP training. Damn! I was so drained but yet i still have to go. Since I signed up for it, I must best responsible. Anyway, if I had not gone, I wont be getting tickets for NDP preview. Of course, the tickets goes to my family. Plus they gave us shoes for the NDP duty(though they gave a shirt and a pants already). The shoes is not bad, I kind of like it but the shirt is horrible. It make us look like a worker for Sentosa. haha. Well, begger can't be chooser.

So thursday was a whole new experienced, I was attached to Sembawang Primary School.
So cool. The kids are all so cute (I am not a paedophile, I am just saying it in general) Initially, we have to go to Outram Park-Health Promotion Board for some briefing and understand the history of school health services. it is not that boring. They gave us one hour to reach sembawang primary. so as usual, we were late. HAha. So there, the first test that was carried out is the hearing test. LOL I did the test too, and you know what? I am not hearing impaired. I thought I am. So now I know that people just talk too softly and worse I cannot lip-read. LOL.
Then, this kid came up to me and gave me a spiderman stickers. So cute!! That kid make my day. She also gave the other student nurses stickers. Hahaha.

Friday, was supposed to be my 2nd day attached to sembawang primary, but I cant go for it. I had IMF/world bank training as a bus host. HEll, they gave us a whole chunk of information. Obviously most of the info got deflected to god knows where...but one thing that is such a shocker to me is that we have to be at kallang stadium at 6am. the first train have not even arrived! That is worse than attachment! Horrible!

Saturday, which is yesterday, another NDP duty. This time is the NDP preview. Well, is like hell since we are dealing with the members of the public. There is alot of ugly singaporean out there. Some are like straight out self-fish. Wanting a whole big space for themselves. Some were idiotic who just didnt want to move in, and cause clogging up of the human traffic. Some just could not shut up and and just plain rude but some are still nice and they have good manners. Well the preview is not as fun as the NE show, Singaporean adult just do not know how to enjoy themselves. The only know how to talk shits and complain and before it end they went off due to the ultra kiasunism. The SMU students who is suppose to in-charge of us are filled with incompetency. *now I am angry* they only know how to talk cock only! FUcker! especially that bushy hair bitch! opps! haha, that ugly bushy hair midget bitch. Fucking bitch called all the usherer who have been working hard all day long " Blockhead".

She did nothing at all but fought with an army officer and cause human traffic jam. Irritating lah, this SMU people.* no offense to anyone* but obviously this A level asshole bitch think to highly of herself. What an ass! I don't think she even have experience in Ushering! Slut! she is also so rude.This jc ass know nothing about communication skill or ushering. The irony is that they are in Singapore Management University. ho ho, that is so wrong. The management went haywire. Horrible! When she was giving debriefing to everyone, I purposely Yawn as lot as possible. Well, everybody agreed with my action. I know, I know, I am starting to be rebellious. at least, I know when to rebel!

on the lighter side, the event came to a great end. Challenging but all the usher did a great job. I reach yishun about almost close to 11 pm.....my mum called up asking whether I want to go to Lau Pa sat(<---did i spell it correctly?). Though i was dead tired, well a supper would be great! haha

ALL this NDP make me patriotic! I wanna do a shout out! I love SINGAPORE!
sunday! Finally, I have time for myself! Finally I can blog! haha.

I forgot I was tagged By Tian Yu to do this...

Instructions:

-Take a look at your friends, list up to 10 things you want to say up to 10 different friends.
-DO NOT state who these people are
-DO NOT confirm or deny any "comment speculation"
-Then tag 5 people


obviously I wont write about up to 10 thing about my friends, got no time, I have to wake up very early tomorrow. Pity me please....


1) It is always so fun hanging out with you. Plus it is nicer to know you when you start to open up emotionaly. haha, all the best! I know you will succeed in whatever you do.

2) My long lost sister! we got different Dad but with the same name! haha, You make me smile all the time. I cant survive this year A-team camp without you! May you and that mister ( you-know-who) be together forever.

3) the funny, loving and crazy one. LOL! It always so fun hanging out with ya!
you are one of those friends just cannot make me stop laughing! What would I do without you! Sing more oK!!

4) one of the most critical person around! you just cant wait to spot people mistakes.haha funny funny.

5)LOL,my cousin likes you!

6)what happen to you!quit complaining.

7) i am just waiting to get a rifle,aim it at your head.....BANG!

8) Hehex, Two timing again izzit? Hope your Bf wont found out

9) Have fun in IMH!

10) may you be happy in that relationship!

no time to tag others. If you want to this, go ahead.....

It is 6 am and I am blogging!
WOW!

haha, I woke up too early. I thought I should be in the ward by 7 am BUT today I am not going to be in the ward, instead I am going to Health Promotion Board for some thingy.

As a year 2 nursing student, it is so stressful. For the past two days, I had not fully utilise the break time I have. It is just too busy. The ward is too busy. There is always something to do. You know, I have no time to read patients casenotes. So now I am like nursing my patients but I don't actually know what the hell is wrong with them. argh!

6.16 am already....how I wish I am in mother goose land right now.....I want to sleep!

YaWn!

Attachment begins today. HAha, I could not sleep this morning. I was too anxious to go for my attachment. I woke up at 3.20 am this morning to check on the time, thinking that is almost 5.45 am in the morning.

Soon after I can't sleep at all. haha....too nervous for attachment.

Anyway, today I lag lag go hospital. trying to look cool mah! LOL. weird
In the end, I was almost late for shift! Thank God it is only orientation for today.

so in the ward blah blah, that ward is happening! Gt alot of politic! haha, very funny! nothing much to comment! coz whatever I say would be ILLEGAL here and UNETHICAL.

I cant blog much guys! I am so tired and ultimately sleepy. I am still thinking whether i should watch desperate housewife and Grey's anatomy later. if i do, i would be having 4 hours of sleep. LOL. sleepy sleepy sleepy.

Miss Japan is so HOT! pretty!

LOL, so random.....

opps! I almost forget something.
Thanks to Audi and Ty for a wonderful dinner today! You Guys are great! It was so impromptu but I liked it! I laughed so much that my stomach can burst! LOL

a friend of mine was talking about hell!

so I did a research about hell, of course the in the Islamic perspective


this is it,


shiver the knee of the DJinn and Human upon looking into hell

hell is pitch black, it illuminate no light nor flame

it have 7 doors, for every door lies 70 000 mountains, for every mountain lies 70 000 slopes. for every slope lies 70 000 cleavage/cracks of hellfire, for every cleavage/crack lies 70 000 Valley. For every Valley lies 70 000 building, for every building lies 70 000 rooms, for every building lies 70 000 rooms, for every room lies 70 000 snakes and 70 000 scorpion. Each scorpion have 70 000 tails, each tail have 70 000 internode. And for every internode lies 70 000 type of poisons.

at the end of time,On Judgement day (after apocalypse)...where human is resurrected to face Allah S.W.T. The Doors of hell will open, smoke will emerge and shroud the right hand side of humans, then the left. Soon after, it will shroud the face and lastly the head and the back.

The Djinn and Human will then scream. " My Lord, Save Us".

Hell have 70 000 reins, and each rein is held by 70 000 Angels. These Angels are the Guardian of Hell. They are tough and rough and watch over the fuel of hell which is human and stone. Since Allah created Hell, The Angel which Guard Hell Never smile.His stare is so terrifying that if he were to stare at the resident of hell. The resident will be so scare to an extend of eating himself.

The shoulder of each angel is wide it is equivalent to a journey of 1 year. Each Angel is so powerful that if he hits a mountain, the mountain will be destroy and when hits, 70 000 people will be thrown to hell.

well, that is scary...... Somehow I believe that hell can catered to all human that ever lived including Adam and Eve and to the rest of human population including the future.

till then, Gud night!

Such a bad timing! real bad....

well, so lets begin with another (boring) entry.....

I told you yesteday that I have no lesson,but still I have to go to NYP to settle some attachment stuff. Ok, this is it, I am involved in the National Day Parade and also the S2006 ( the one about the world bank and the IMF thingy). Yes, yes, I wonder how in the world my butt is involved in it. BUt I believed this event is so going to be fun. Erm, I think I have just side-track. Anyway, it is quite troublesome due to all the admin work need to be done to cater to SHS student(basically Pris, Naz and me) who is doing these duty. Firstly I need to go to the Student admission office(THE SAO aka The BIG people) to get an excuse letter so that it can be a form of evidence for the Clinical Placement Manager aka Doris Chan that I will be doing something.

After obtaining the letter, straight away we go to Doris Chan office. Boy, you should have seen the look on her face. It literally sunken. Ok, so she is in-charge of the our attachment and our shift throughout our clinical posting. So she have to tediously plan the posting of 800-1000 students. So when we stepped in her office armed with the excuse letter, she just have to obey. With all the admin work just to make the changes, the 3 of us can killed. This is due to the fact that 3 of us come for 3 different Mother Hospital. Pris is from TTSH, Naz is from AH and me from SGH.
Imagine all the emailing she have to do. To make matter worse, during the S2006, we are not even posted to our mother hospital. 3 of us will be in another 3 different specialise ward e.g. Pediatric, Communicable disease centre and gyniecology. Imagine another round of emailing she have to do. She looked stress. OK, the word " Look" is such an understatement. SHE is DAMN STRESS.

Somehow I pity her. NDP, S2006 and attachment all clash at one time, what a bad bad timing!

So everything with NYP is settle already, so now I need to get out of that place.
Then end up in NVSS,I was helping out SJAB with their usual stuff. Haha. It is fun seeing them around, but somethings are just different. While I was in Nvss, I could not help noticing that NVSS look so puny. The corridor, the toilet, the pathway..the whole area basically. Nvss look so small. People can just suffocate to death. Then I also wonder how can a school this small can be an organization. haha. weird. Furthermore, their students population is not alot + there is quite a number of CCA, how can the CCA flourish with such a small number of students.

After that I wanted to meet Mdm Rina and have a chat with her. ANOTHER BAD TIMING, she is very busy......she need to finish up stuff like appraisal and some other things as some big people is coming to check on the school admin. She said that she is going home at 9pm today, together with Mrs Hee and Mrs Teng. Well tomorrow is Saturday, they need to finish yup everything by today so that they can have a well-deserved break tomorrow. I did not meet with Mdm Aini also, I am sad about that part too.

Coz today is the only time I am free, after that, I am pack with activities.

I watch Charmed just now, it sadden me to watch that show again. coz I knew the ending. Charmed Forever!

I wonder what is the Media doing. The NDP is coming and they did not even put the Music Video for this year national day song. The only thing I saw was Christina Aguilera shaking her booty on her new mtv. Talk about patriotism! the media is corrupted.....

Hie!

haha, it's quite a while since I blog. How are you doing? haha. well, this week is the end of school week for me!! yup yup!

I got no school on friday. Meaning? I do not have any lesson that day. Mrs tan was so kind enough to bring forward the lesson to today. How sweet of her! Well, Mrs tan is one of the best bioscience teacher around. LOL. Ok not teacher, but lets say Lecturer. So let me repeat, Mrs tan is one of the best bioscience LECTURER around. She is good. Real GOOD! She somehow remind me of Mdm Rina. Gosh! I so miss her.
It's been about 14 weeks since the last time I visited Mdm Rina. Haha. may be i should drop by Nvss tomorrow.


So, I am abit ok. I finally pass my BCLS which I was so down upon failing it. haha. well, I deserve failing it. Coz now I am much better than before! haha. failure makes me stronger but for me, I need to go through this period call " Whining and complaining and a little bit of depression" stages so that I can be all better the very next day. haha, well, failing BCLS the first time is not a major screw up for me. The Major screw up that I have done is failing english for O level! That is a total screw up. BUT look at me now, I am a nurse. A proud one. I MUST say
"ARIGATO" to Mdm Asmah for her time to assess me for the BCLS test. She is such a patient lecturer , well she is more than that, she is such a sweet heart.


How I wish she will be my clinical skill lecturer until year 3!










haha, the lecturer there is Mdm Asmah. This video, I know IT is POOR quality but heck it. So The guy in blue is chang how the only other guy in my class. I called him the Prof Chang How. He is a genuis. So the one recording this video is Aisyah.

It is not as easy as it look. CPR is never easy. You need to do a counting and use the amount of force for the chest compression with a great precision. In the end I am so exhausted. You need to do a 5 set of 30 compression is to 2 breath in 2 minutes. WOW, that tough. but well, i manage to overcome it!


hmm, I think I use too much of the word "I" in this entry. Anyway, Have you read about Audi's recent entry. Kind of sad I think. He is going to stop blogging. This is a great loss for me. I mean like without his blog or rather without him updating his blog i will know next to nothing about is psychosocial background. I don't know what is he going through. Basically he will be an alien to me. But well, through his blog, i saw how he developed in the pass two years. Well not bad, he will have a bright future.

HMM, Gayle's is out of SINGAPORE IDOL! sad.......i was expecting Emily Kang. haha, just goes to show that Gayle is not an Idol material. But I hope and I really hope that Rahimah Rahim and Jonathan Leong would be the only two left competing for the title of Singapore Idol. Rahimah just got the black women voice while Jonathan leong got the X-factor! haha, the rest have to work hard coz this two are going to make them run for their money! haha....

till then....tatas!

one more thing!

should I put back my tagboard? *wondering*

it just get tiring, it is really tiring.......

trying to cheer myself everyday from all this emotional abuse.

haiz, I am just so sick of living.....not that I want to die but I am just so tired of moving forward in life. especially when my life is full of shits.

Everyday I wish that I would never wake up. I just want to go to sleep and be that way for eternity. Nobody to take care and nobody to hold on. That would be great.
just living my life on my own

i have always been dreaming of forsaking my family. How I wish all of them are on the other end of this globe. I wanna live faraway from them. I dont even want to hear their voices. Why would care for people who don't give a fuckin damn about you.

I am so proud of this cousin of mine who is like no where to be found. She and her family move to johor and broke all ties with her family. Well, I seriously cant wait to be in that situation. then truly my life would be golden.

Now I just have to wait to get my diploma and finish my NS and rent a house of my own. Then build up my own career. hmm, i like that type of life very much. Now everything is just a waiting game..........

yes yes. it is obvious! I change my blogskin!!
Cheer!! wahahahahaha.

well, of course, I am like so bored of that skin. " tranquility". LOL
Coz tranquility is so not me nowadays.serious, some asses are just trying to destroy my life like everyday. Plus it is closer to home. NO. They are in "the home".
Oh shits, why am I curse to be in such an ill fate! Anything and everything, please show me the light. let me find a way to get a machine gun and shoot this monkeys down.

One more thing, you see there is no tagboard. can you see?? of course not. I just told you there is no tagboard. Hello?? Please think! LOL. so why did I do this?
so that......................figure that out yourself lah. I cannot be bother to elucidate the detail. Use your imagination and try hard to figure out my action IF YOU HAVE THE TIME.

PLUS there is another reason, it feel very weird when people comment about your everyday life. Seriously,( after so many months of blogging)LOL I dont write about my life so that you can scrutinize every detail. Hello, this is not a soap opera! YEs! I can hear what you are saying in your brain. It goes something like this " Your blog is too boring to even scrutinize anything". I know i know, If you people want to scrutinize something, please proceed to audi's blog. He bare all. Better go for today's entry! It is just so HOT and Sizzlin! It about some porno stuff lah! LOL. erm, not to that extend lah! wah lau! the moment i wrote "porno" your mind went wild already. haha. it is not porno lah actually....more detail, read it yourself.

Finally I realise why I dont really blog alot nowadays. Becoz I am being so reserved in whatever I wrote. Hmm, why do I think so. I was reading through my archive and I find that I enjoy reading my own entry when I was in sec 4. LOL. "I enjoy reading my own entries" that sound so wrong! haha, anyway, back to what I am talking about! During sec 4 not many people have a blog, And I just write the way I like it. heck to grammer or whatever shits. Coz I am pleasing no one. Coz I am not an entertainer.
So let me do it my way. COZ THIS IS MA BLOG! you gt your own style, I got mine!

I feel so much better writing like this already. and I dun feel like it such a drag to write an entry. To write an entry with all sophisticated england and grandmamma is so not my thing! I am not you man.

Moving, On do you know that yesterday, during the NDP show, a kid call me uncle!
Uncle!! HE said a taboo word " Uncle" Do I look that old! i know I look old but not that old!!! HE CALLED ME AN "UNCLE" for god sake! That Is too much! UNcle???
I am only freaking 17++++ and he call me an uncle. Damn, The school! What are they teaching to the future generation of singapore?

Somebody do something! Don't look me. I am doing nothing!

I am so freaking tired.

but i just had to blog about it. haha...

today we had NE NDP for the primary 5 student. Well, it was great.

All the P5 was so nthu about the whole event. Singing along, saying the pleage and even singing the national anthem. haha. Their voices are so cute too. i doubt the preview would be more fun than today. Coz the adult are just not that into NDP.

Today's ndp is so much better than last week. With the right companion,felicia,markand sherlyn, i just sing and dance according to the beat. it is a good experience. hahaha.

the firework is just marvellous. haha

too many smile for too many people
this face sunken with a multiple wrinkle
so much talk but effect of ripple
awaiting to strike with the rusted sickle

erm, I really need to change my way. seriously need to change my way.
I got not actually a scolding but somehow a stern reminder about who I am now.
A nurse.

haha.

The nurse manager of nursing personally meet me and my friends for playing card games in the lab. hahaha. What a joke! well, she say she is disappointed that year 2 student is the one who was committing the offences. ok, I know how she feel. Ok, i felt bad too.

Plus with all this stuff going on.....I need to be my old self back. Not the slacker. My motivation is super low. I am being to complacent.

OK. I am going to work hard. Be the nerd!! haha.......


hmm, you know i had an eating relapse. I have been popping myself with lot of durian.
It not the cheapo durian but it is the really good one. OMG!!
I just had to let down my diet, seriously, this is great!
* i can hear the choir singing everytime i lick that succulent durian"

haha..........

I am so stupid! It is official! It is the end of the world.


I fail my BCLS. Basic cardiac life support. The CPR.
I fail CPR!

argh, reality have show me that I will be a loser. I will be the typical malay idiotz who will just have a low-paying job and have a monthly salary that wont even be enough for my family.

It official. I am an idiotz. OMG! how could I fail it. Stupid, stupid stupid.

Enough! I wont go to depression lah. But i am just dumb! Honestly dumb.
I should blame on my laziness. I am a lazy, unmotivated tub of lard who simply got no brain!
I am getting stupid.

I can imagine all my friends having a hig ranking job and I will be at the bottom of the hierarchy. All my dream will be unfulfilled. That what the tarot card say too.

If my mum can pass BCLS , how could i fail sia. what the hell! She gg to be disappointed if she found out.

I feel so pathetic, If my mum can pass it why cant i?

Why can't I???

i think it is written down all over my head.......loser!

hehex!~
I fit into my size 34 jean!! wahahaha. I am so freaking happy!
Finally I can wear my size 34 jean after so many months!!!


I am so happy! Thanks to God and a special Thanks to Tian yu. You Get the credit man!
My butt size is decreasing!!

ok, now aim to get wear a size 32 pants! muz aim!!


God dont give me a relapse. I really need to lose my weight!
National services is coming in soon.......like a year and a half time.
Need to lose some weight!!


but ok, I just now, had dinner with ty, lala and ky. It is so fun to have them around.
I just can relate to them with anything and everything. OMG! we were talking about semen just now. Haha. so funny! I miss the already, they make me laugh!

Just like with the people from A-team!
I miss my A-team mates 1oo. nvm, i will be seeing them this saturday, for NDP duty. yeah! I cant wait for it.

I still love my friends!!!


Don't make a huge protest! You people are still my light and hope.
My close friends are still dear to me including people from A-team.

I just need a place to pour out the negative emotion in me into the this blog. I am strong believer in not bottling up your emotion. I rather write stuff on my blog than venting out my anger on my friends.


see, I am ok already. You guys know me. I dont really mean what I say. If I hurt your feeling, I am sorry then. Anyway, friendship that I was referring to is about "superficial friendship". Well, then, I dont give up my friends that easily!

Don't ask me to delete my entry. I dont believe in deleting my entry.

Lazy Sunday.......


I am starting to have mood swing. LOL. A very serious one. I cant seem to be focus on anything. I cant be bother with anyone or anything.
All of these seem so insignificant to me. I knew I would be getting my moodswing soon.
Argh. Seriously I have no mood for anything except for swinging my mood. Yes, yes....lame.

school starts tomorrow, i am so going to dread it. Extremely going to dread it. I have some stupid test going on that week, or izzit this week. Please dont ask me to correct my grammer. It is beyond repair. It will just become worse. So don't bother me with petty stuff like improving my english. How about this? Dont even bother me. Seriously, I have enough of people blabbering and telling me what to do. Yes, Enough!

One more thing, for every mistakes I made, Please shut up. Don't even tell me about mistakes. Let me figure it out instead even if it a 1000 years for me to figure it out. Just shut up. Dont hurt my self-esteem which is thinner than a piece of paper. Your words can just crush it mercilessly.
Yes, I am a klutz and I have no common sense but still, let me do it my way. Give me the satisfaction of doing things on my own.


I am so irritated by people who send me stupid email. Especially email about friendship. If you want friendship, go call the person up and ask "how are you". Don't send lame email about friendship. Friendship is forgotten by the days. If you have not been in contact with that person for many months , just dont bother trying to act as if you are trying to keep in contact. Because first of all, the person have somebody new to hang out with, and second of all, YOU are ALREADY FORGOTTEN! understand?

Anyway, friendship does not mean anything much at all. Especially to me. You can have alot of friends, but none really even know you. Some dont even know how to spell your name correctly. Remember, some friends are toxic friends. Go google and found out what is that.
Some friendship are so superficial that sometimes you can thinks yourself as a hypocrite.
Oh no, everybody is a hypocrite. Everyone out there have their own hidden agenda. This is the world, everything is about profit and loss.

Disclaimer: This entry have nothing to do with Audi, you, or you or even you who still think that I am talking about you. Whatever I write here does not mean anything as I am just trying to make myself feel better and relief my mood swing. I had a bady day. really bad day.
So if you want to be so emotional and hide in that little cave of yours, SO BE IT! I DONT GIVE A DAMN! since you crying for nothing. Anyway, I had a good blogging session and now I want to have a good night sleep!

I am feeling so tired! extremely tired. My legs are like aching.


I had National Day Duty- family day today. As usual I am doing all the ushering and some stuff. The place was quite hectic. Some aunties were complaning about the direct and some stuff. haha. Typical occupational hazard that every usherer should face.

Then while doing the duty, Cherina and Gang was there at the entrance. Erm? Did is speel her name properly? haha, it doesn't really matter. I just know it is javis- ex gf. Gosh, they saw me like they saw a ghost like that. The moment they saw they were like " eh eh eh" withe their hand pointing at me. I was like " what?? never seen a an usher for NDP event izzit?".
Well, when they were about to leave some smile at me and of course I return the smile and then they walk away. weird! i really don't expect north view people to be there. Haha, what to do, singapore is small.

hmm, I miss secondary life minus the rules, plegde taking and singing of national anthem. Haha. So now I actually know how the NDP parade gonna be. Damn, I gonna watch it like 4 times this year. hahaha. All this for the sake of CCA point.

Plus I still got bus host duty for the international delegate that is coming to singapore for the World Bank Meeting and also International mandatory fund meeting. How am I going to juggle all of this, so many things to do. I never knew iwould be involved in such big event.
Well, I hope I can get a great experience out all this. haha. How many people is privileged to do what I do. I have to treasure this opportunity.

Hmm, school is alright. But I am so screwing up my Leadership studies elective module. I am doing utterly rubbish. haiz...........

One down! 4 more stuff to go.

patient education presentation was quite ok. Everything when smoothly. Quite tired after school today. I was so eager to go home. I don't know why I am having my mood swing.
may be I smile too long izzit? It time for the negative emotion to surface to balance this euphoria of mine.

Reach Yishun, then meet with Audi for dinner. Javis came later on. We chat for a while and then go home. Audi have a new habits. Well, hope he can control it rather than the cig control him.

I used to stigmatised people who smoke but well people change. I changes abit.
Others change alot more. haha

Oh yah, I saw Salsabila today. OMG! She is so pretty. She lost alot of weight and she is super pretty!! Salsabila have metamorphasize! OMG! *screaming like some bimbo*

Then saw farid, He is quite the same. Haha

I cant get over it! Salsabila is so beautiful!

This video is Dedicated to ALL PEOPLE!

including my new tagboard buddy! and All my friends who is

stress with daily hassle.

Let Me be thick skin . I am dedicating this song to me too.

May I live MY LIFE LIKE like Is GOLDEN and I sure will!
and All of you Live Your life like it is Golden!






I heard this song at the end of a show call " The beauty Shop" By Queen Latifah.